FACING THE UNKNOWN [Text]
The Ribbons of My Truth have lead to my life Changes
It happened in a day. I got the lightning.
The moment of my spiritual incarnation came when I was in my 30’s.
That day was the climax of a series of events that occurred over several months before and after.
Though I was totally praying for something like that to happen, I (my mind) was completely unprepared.
My mind had no idea what I was praying for, because this type of experience was completely out of my scope, out of my spectrum of awareness.
In fact, I disparaged those spiritually airy hippies, eating tasteless spelt cookies and chanting all day long, because that was the only ‘aware’ connection I had to spirituality. I couldn’t imagine that this spiritual incarnation would happen, that it would lead to this strong sensation of openness, that the feelings of a deep, fulfilling and serene ecstasy could even exist, or that consciousness, a perception of the seen and unseen, could expand.
Prayers are delicate ribbons of affirmation that the mind accepts and enjoys, they carry your eternal truth, your soul wisdom and your own prophecy.
Many times I am asked by my students questions about their next, naturally evolutionary state of consciousness, sometimes the one who is asking doesn’t even know that this is the essence of his questions.
On one hand, in those cases, no answer can be satisfying, on the other hand- the question itself is the heart-soul prayer, a sign that the spirit is now delicately massaging your mental body, supporting you to open up, more and more.
Previous to receiving the blissful gift of elevated consciousness gradually penetrating me, something exceptional happened.
Integrity took over.
There was a moment when I felt I needed to drop everything, and I did it.
I had zero safety net, and I even dropped the need for having a safety net.
Before I received the calling, I knew, internally that I could not keep on doing what I was doing, and that I was supposed to be in another place, doing something else.
So I declared to the universe that the minimum I could do, until the unknown was more communicative, was to stop what I was doing at the moment.
And I stopped.
I quit my job, gave up my private projects, and gave away many of my things. I was ready for the unknown to come.
It is not about courage or overcoming fear, it is about integrity.
I could not lie to myself, and could not lie to the world. Something was not as it was supposed to be, reality seemed flat to me, I could not believe that all the phases of life and living summed up to eating, sleeping, having sex, fun and money.
Integrity is not only about being truthful to yourself and the world,
Integrity is when your present is matching your presence, fully.
The unknown does not have a face that can be revealed. The unknown stays unknown.
We stay in our integrity by letting it be unknown, facing it, accepting it-
Loving it for that.
The logic of my heart enchanted me.
I follow my heart, follow my intuition.
I wasn’t aware of what was about to happen, there was no traceable logic to the scenario I created- the only logic was the logic of my heart.
I was searching for IT could not find IT. In retrospect it is clear I did not know where to look, nor did I know what I was looking for.
I am not the only one, we are all like that, all searches have no image of what they are looking for.
Once you accept that what you are looking for is mentally unfamiliar to you, and will stay as such, you’ll start looking for it from your heart eyes.
Your heart eyes see it all and there is a chance your entire being will be washed with a graceful presence.
These ribbons of my truth are the first part of the journey of becoming who I am today, my spiritual incarnation. I am eager to share more with you in the weeks ahead, but for now, tell me beloved:
What are you praying or searching for that you cannot yet picture?